Tuesday, September 29, 2020



HALLELUJAH sung by Bon Jovi is on the rise. Even though it is an old song, from now on, it is starting to be active and sung by famous artists. Wikipedia states that this song has been performed by more than 200 artists in various languages.

I myself did not pay attention to the words for I just loved the music and melody. A friend told me that it was a song of adultery between David and Bathsheba. I was shocked when I heard this. I immediately did research on the composer. This time I took a good, hard look at the song's lyrics.

Here is the full Hallelujah lyrics:

I've heard there was a secret chord

That David played and it pleased the Lord

But you don't really care for music, do you?

It goes like this: the fourth, the fifth

The minor fall, the major lift

The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof

You saw her bathing on the roof

Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you

She tied you to a kitchen chair

She broke your throne, she cut your hair

And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Maybe I've been here before

I know this room, I've walked this floor

I used to live alone before I knew you

I've seen your flag on the marble arch

Love is not a victory march

It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

There was a time you let me know

What's real and going on below

But now you never show it to me, do you?

And remember when I moved in you

The holy dark was moving too

And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Maybe there's a god above

And all I ever learned from love

Was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you

It's not a cry you can hear at night

It's not somebody who's seen the light

It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

When I read and studied the lyrics of the song I started to get shocked and confused. How could this song become a spiritual song…?

Is it because there is the word “Hallelujah, Hallelujah…?"

The content of the song is about the love, albeit adulterous, relationship between two humans. There is absolutely no element of glorifying the name of God. If the content of this so-called praise song only describes the love relationship between a man and a woman, then how is it different from worldly songs?

I got wisdom from the Holy Spirit. There is a spirit of Jezebel, a spirit of adultery that moves and inspires the songwriter and makes this song worldwide to mislead as many people, including God's sheep if that is possible. The devil's strategy to mislead God's children through this song is very successful.

The person who composed the song "Hallelujah" is Leonard N. Cohen. After I researched his biography, here are some important things that should be underlined:

Leonard Norman Cohen CC GOQ (September 21, 1934 – November 7, 2016) was a Canadian singer, songwriter, poet, and novelist. His work explored religion, politics, isolation, depression, sexuality, loss, death and romantic relationships

Cohen had a brief phase around 1970 of being interested in a variety of world views, which he later described as "from the Communist party to the Republican Party. From Scientology to delusions of me as the High Priest rebuilding the Temple".

Cohen was involved with Buddhism beginning in the 1970s and was ordained a Buddhist monk in 1996; he continued to consider himself Jewish: "I'm not looking for a new religion. I'm quite happy with the old one, with Judaism." Beginning in the late 1970s, Cohen was associated with Buddhist monk and rōshi (venerable teacher) Kyozan Joshu Sasaki, regularly visiting him at Mount Baldy Zen Center and serving him as personal assistant during Cohen's period of reclusion at Mount Baldy monastery in the 1990s.

"Hallelujah" was first released on Cohen's studio album Various Positions in 1984, and he sang it during his Europe tour in 1985. This was the time he was immersed in Buddhism.

In 1994, Cohen retreated to the Mt. Baldy Zen Center near Los Angeles, beginning what became five years of seclusion at the center. In 1996, Cohen was ordained as a Rinzai Zen Buddhist monk and took the Dharma name Jikan, meaning "silence". He served as a personal assistant to Kyozan Joshu Sasaki Roshi.

The song "Hallelujah" plays at the level of the human soul. And it doesn't move at all at the spiritual level. What is the difference between this song and worldly songs that can make people cry if they sing their hearts out?

There is a Catholic priest who has become a YouTube sensation when he sang this song “Hallelujah” at a wedding. He may not have realized that he was releasing the spirit of Jezebel on the married couple whose wedding he performed and all the other married couples present in that wedding.

Today, on Youtube you can also see many church choirs performing this song as a public presentation in their churches. Again, they may not realize that they are releasing the spirit of Jezebel over the mainly Christian audience, thereby potentially wrecking many marriages in time to come. Most couples would not know what hit them and would not be able to trace their marital problems to attending this song's performance.

Some Christians have altered the lyrics to words that depict the death and resurrection of Jesus for Easter Sunday. Sounds very appropriate. After all, what harm can it bring? But the melody and the music were composed in Hell, and demons recognize the music as the devil’s property. So demons may still descend and swarm churches that sing an Easter version of Cohen’s Hallelujah.

Recently, at the conclusion of the Republican National Convention at the White House on 27 August 2020, Opera Singer Christopher Macchio sang two songs that also would be releasing two demonic principalities over the White House. One is Cohen’s Hallelujah and the other is Ave Maria. Ave Maria is supposedly dedicated to Mary, the Mother of Jesus. Catholics call her the Mother of God. But in the spirit, this song Ave Maria is sung in honor of the Queen of Heaven, the fallen angel principality that rules the second heaven that is filled with demon principalities and strongholds. Thus, by two fell swoops, the singer unleashed two demon principalities over the RNC audience that night, the spirit of Jezebel and the Queen of Heaven.

But Christians in America have been covering the President and the White House with much prayer and fasting, so the deadly effects of this twin principalities, Jezebel and the Queen of Heaven may be mitigated.




Hi I'm Kevin Zadai. Welcome to the secret place where all your prayers are answered. Today we're going to be talking about some of the things that happen in the secret place. One of them being just judgments. A lot of you need some justice in your life. The Lord has already spoken to me about this.

Today we're going to talk about just judgments. This is one of the benefits of being in the secret place. In Psalms 36: 6 in a Passion translation it says your judgments are as full of wisdom as the oceans are full of water.

This is encouraging to me because as many of you know I was on the other side for 45 minutes with Jesus. One of the things that I can tell you about Jesus is He's full of justice. A lot of people have been praying for the answers to their prayers but Jesus explained to me that He is also a God of justice.

Those judgments that He makes against your enemies are going to become clear to you today. I want you to yield to the Spirit because the Lord is speaking. He's saying that there's been a lot of things that have happened in your life that were not right. It's not enough for God to just sit back and have not have recompense.

We're going to pray today. We're gonna spend some time talking about what the God of recompense, the God who is just the God who is fighting for you. It's the God of the payback. 

I'm telling you that the Lord wants to pay back. He wants to make the enemy come according to Scripture. You know the enemy has to pay back when he's caught 7 times what was stolen. He's got to give the belongings of His household as well as a recompense for being caught.

The enemy is caught but do you have recompense? Do you have justice in your life? This is what the Lord has shown me about Himself. He is a God of justice.

Now justice will reign in your life after this word. Think about the secret place as you're sitting there with the Lord.

The Lord says you know what? I know that you are healed from your past. I understand that but on record, there are some things that I want to pay you back for. I am asking you to release Me to go and get back what has been stolen from you.

It's not enough the Lord says that it has been resolved. As far as you have forgiven your enemy you have gone on with him. The Lord is saying that He is a judge who is just. He wants justice in your case.

I found out Jesus wants us to side with Him. Think about this. The advocate, the lawyer that you have in court is Jesus. The judge is Jesus' Father. The court is rigged in your favor. Jesus is going to take your case today. He's going to present it to the Father. The Father's gonna rule in your favor. 

Think about this as we pray in the Spirit. I'm gonna pray in tongues. I'm going to deliver the translation of that tongues.

[Speaking in tongues now].

The Spirit of the Lord is saying that the Angels of the Lord have been sent to recompense to bring justice in your case. The Lord says it's time now for recompense. It's time for the enemy to repay what he has stolen from you. The Lord is a just judge.

It is my belief that the Spirit of the Lord is saying these just judgments are in your favor in the name of Jesus. The Lord's telling me that some of you have been stolen from by your family. That is a deep hurt.

We're gonna ask you by the Spirit of Lord. He's telling me to forgive your family members that have stolen from you. He told me that there's some inheritance that was given. It was stolen from you that you didn't get what was yours. The Lord knows about that.

I'm speaking to some people. You need to forgive your family members in the Lord. He said He's gonna bring it another way for you. The Lord is gonna bring it another way because the angels are being sent forth. They're going to bring it back to you in another way. You need to release your family members.

The Lord is saying to some of you it feels as though your dreams have been stolen from you. It seems like they've just gone dormant. There's been a thief in your life that's taken those dreams that were in your heart.

It's almost like God is taking you back when you were a child. You used to dream. Think about what. It'd be like when you grew up.

Well the Lord said, "I am here to give you your dreams back to give you hope.” The Spirit of the Lord is saying, “Don't let go of that which I have given you in your heart in dreams, visions and words of the Lord.” The Lord is renewing those things by the Spirit of the Living God. The Lord is reviving those things that He has spoken to you.

It's time for justice. People I'm telling you the Spirit of the Lord is moving on your behalf. He's speaking right through me. I can feel it. I know what He's doing.

The Spirit of the Lord is saying that the Angels have come. They're going to bring forth justice in your life. Think about what the Lord is saying to you. He's had it. He's had it. Do you realize what the Spirit of the Lord saying? That the enemies of God are also your enemies. Your enemies are God's enemies. Both enemies are done. God is judging your enemies. He has not forgotten. He has not forgotten you.

In fact some of you, I'm just telling you by the Spirit of the Lord, money is going to be released to you that was stolen from you. There's some of you the Lord is already telling me you're gonna get a raise. You're gonna get a raise unexpected raise. This has happened to me many times.

I'm telling you by the Spirit of the Lord. It's time for recompense. The Lord says those things which you have done in secret where you have given to people, those things were written down. Now the Lord is going to reward you.

The Lord is saying something else to me. I saw where you were not giving an opportunity. It was your place to be promoted. You were not promoted. The Lord has written that down. Whoever that is the Lord wants you to know that you will not be passed up again, that your promotion is coming. It was stolen from you.

It's almost like you were Joseph. You were thrown in a pit. You ended up in Potiphar's house. You ended up in jail but the Lord says you're coming out because the word of the Lord after it is tested you it's gonna come forth. The word of the Lord is gonna come to you. It's gonna come to pass. I'm telling you you are going to be promoted. Justice is coming. Justice is coming into your life.

I think about Moses. How Moses was walking with God. It wasn't easy at times. He would go to the Lord. He would ask for help. He said, “Lord, how do I deal with these people?” The Lord said, "I know that they're stiff-necked.” Moses replied, “Well, Lord, You know they're Your people. We're not going anywhere without You.”

That touched the Lord's heart. It touched the Lord's heart. That's what you're gonna say in this secret place. This is one of those things. "Lord, I want justice but this is how it's gonna happen. You're gonna go with me. If You don't go with me I'm not going." He loves to hear that.

He told me that one time, “My people need to tell Me that they need Me like their next breath. They need My just judgments in their life. They need Me to act.”

You can initiate a miracle. The Lord tells me there are miracles being initiated. This is powerful. This session right here is one of the most powerful sessions because the Lord is telling me. He's had enough. He's not gonna sit back any longer and watch you get stolen from. He has kept track of everything that's been stolen from you.

Now the Spirit of Lord is telling me that you need to rejoice. We're just gonna worship the Lord. Let's just raise our hands. Let's just worship God. Thank God thank you Lord for Your recompense. Thank you Lord for the deliverance. Thank You for just judgments. Oh thank You Father. Thank You for delivering us the power of just judgments in our life. Thank You, Lord. You are a just judge. You are taking care of it.

This is what the Spirit of the Lord saying to. I'm just gonna keep going here. The Spirit of the Lord is telling me that there are a lot of you that the process that you've gone through has worn you out. You've gone through a hard time.

The Lord says, “Listen, if you'll just stick in there with Me just a little longer, I am working it out on your behalf. I am moving. You can't give up now.”

The Lord says to keep moving, keep going forward, keep praying, keep seeking Me because you are at the edge of a breakthrough. The Lord is going to a breakthrough on your behalf.

I'm speaking to people whose bodies are holding them back. I speak healing in the name of Jesus. I speak to every kind of disease. I drive it out especially in the kidneys and livers. Lord God just cleanse those livers. Cleanse those kidneys in the name of Jesus.

All you people that have back pain I know that it's hard but the Lord wants to heal you. There's going to be a heat going up and down your spine because the Lord is healing you.

The Lord is saying, “It's time for justice. It's time that there is a judgment against your enemy.”

There are evil spirits that have been tormenting you at night. The Lord told me that there are people that don't even want to sleep because when they sleep they have bad dreams. Evil spirits torment them. I drive you out in the name of Jesus you foul lying devils. I break the power in the name of Jesus. You will sleep soundly. No more bad dreams. In the name of Jesus, I break that power.

You see the Lord is bringing justice on your behalf. I'm addressing every evil spirit that is hindering any kind of prosperity. In the name of Jesus, I break every evil spirit that has built walls up to stop the money from coming in. The money shall flow. The Lord saying, “It is not Me that's holding it back from you.” It is broken now in the name of Jesus. I am telling you by the Spirit of God, prosperity is flowing to you.

You need to just raise your hands and worship God. Thank you Father for the release of finances. Thank you Father.

There are some of you the Lord is saying that you want to be used in ministry. Well, I'm telling you the Lord wants to use you in ministry but here's how He's going to do it. He's gonna give you something to do. He's gonna tell you what to do. What He's telling me to tell you is this wait on Him because the Lord wants to speak to you and give you instructions. The power of the Lord is upon me. I'm telling you by the power of God things are being broken off your life but one of the things you need to do is you need to receive instructions from your commander. This is justice because you have waited a long time. The Lord says your time is coming. It's not gonna be delayed any longer because justice has come in your life. The Lord has said that He has ruled in your favor.

Well now I'm telling you the power God is ministering to people. There are kisses from heaven happening. You see what happens to you. The Lord is delivering you. You're gonna see. You're gonna see it. You're gonna see the things that are gonna break open for you.

The Lord says, “When you pray, expect Me to visit you. When you seek Me expect to find Me. When you knock expect that door to be open. It shall be open to you.”

There are many people you will not have to wait for any longer because the Lord has come. He has come with an answer to your prayer. I'm telling you by the power of God that justice has come to your life.

Thank you Lord Jesus. There are many people there. You're even feeling the restoration in your joints. Even the pain that was there is not there any longer. The Lord is moving. See this is what happens in the secret place. The Lord's whispering to you. He's saying, "You know what? You don't have to wait another day."

I have come just like it was in Joshua chapter 5 when that angel came. Joshua didn't even know who he was. He said, “I am the commander of the Lord's army.” That's what that angel said. Now I have come. That's what the Lord saying to you. What happens when an angel shows up? He starts to execute justice on your behalf in your life. When he just pulls that sword out, you guys start going after all your enemies. All of a sudden there are no enemies left. No one's talking. No one's saying anything to you anymore.

In the Spirit you see you're gonna sleep fine now. You're going to sleep fine. You're gonna hear the voice of the Lord. The Lord's telling me. He's saying, “The increase of the anointing is coming on your life to where you can hear My voice.”

The Lord said, “The justice that's coming into your life is this. That the word of the Lord has come to you but there are many voices in the warfare you're going through that you cannot distinguish which is of God which is not. You find yourself in a corner.”

The Lord says, “I'm going to make it in the secret place that you can hear My voice clearly.”

I'm telling you the Lord's moving in the area of justice. He's judging in your favor. Remember what happened to me when the Lord sent me back. He said, “Kevin, if you'll go back, you'll do My will, if you'll do what I've asked you to do, you cannot fail. It's all extra credit. You cannot fail.”

He told me, “Kevin, if you'll tell the people to believe that they received before they even pray believe in your heart that what they are praying will come to pass believe before you even receive it, you shall have it.”

This is the Jesus Christ that you serve as a Christian. You're believing. He already wants to give you the desires of your heart. He's going to give it to you. Psalms 37 He will give you the desires of your heart. That's what He's telling me. You have to receive from Him.

This blessed time in His presence there's gonna be a command about you. You're probably feeling it because I'm feeling it. The shift has happened. It's time for you to rise up in boldness. Speak the word of the Lord.

You see that's what God wants. God wants people on this earth to operate in authority. He wants them to speak the power of the Word of God that's spoken in Heaven. I'm sensing that you are getting hit.

There's many of you that are called to the prophetic but you don't have the boldness to speak. You need to start allowing and yielding to the other realm to the other place where God dwells in you. It's in Heaven but it's in you. You got a yield to that. There's a word of the Lord coming inside of you.

Jeremiah said that when he's tried to stop speaking the word of the Lord, there was like a fire that was inside of him. That fire is inside of you. That fire is burning. The fire is burning inside of you. It's the word of the Lord. You need to start speaking the word of the Lord.

I'm telling you. You're breaking out. It's your time. I'm sensing some other things for you. You have chosen some of the people that you're associated with. They are not like you. They are not called to the same walk that you're called to. The Lord's been dealing with you. The Lord tells me that you need to let those people go. Those people who are not allowing you to walk in what God has called you to. You need to let them go. It's better to be alone with God than it is to be with someone who's going to slow you down.

There are certain people that are destined for your life at certain times but then God moves them out. He moves you into other places with other people that have the same vision you do. The reason why God has chosen this time in this place to tell you this is because it's time for just judgments to be in your life. It's time for you to move on.

The Lord's telling you. You know what I'm talking about. You need to let those people go. There are people that are in relationships that don't need to be in those relationships. It's time. The Lord is saying it's time.

He said, “I've called you to be apart for Me. It's time for you to move into what I have for you.”

Now I see the fire of God. The fire God's hitting many people. It's profound all over the world. People are getting hit by the fire of God. The fire is burning inside of you because there are many prophets out there. There are many people that are called to prophesy. You haven't been doing it.

The Lord is saying it's time to yield to the Spirit to yield to that fire. Speak forth the mysteries of God. You go ahead. Just practice it. Just start speaking forth what God's telling you to speak. You know in telling the devil that I am in no longer gonna be in lack that the Lord is leading me into all provision that the Lord God has provided for me. He's working it all out. I'm gonna be promoted because I submit to His will. I am NOT going to take no for an answer.

The Lord told me one time. He said, “Kevin, if people will just take a hold of Me and not let go, I'll give them what they want. I find people irresistible when they approach Me in faith, a faith a tenacity that will not let go.”

That's what's going on. You're taking hold of Jesus. You're not letting go because the Lord has ruled in your favor. This is the way you have to act from now on. You have to act as though you know that the Lord has ruled in your favor. This is your time.

Well the Spirit of the Lord still speaking to me there are many people, you're realizing that you have lived in at low life. You have lived a very low life in comparison to what God has for you. The Spirit of Revelation is hitting you. He's telling you, “Listen this fire is burning out the chaff.” It's showing you you've been living a low life. It's time to let the Spirit of God take you up into a higher realm in a higher way of living. It starts right here below your nose. You're gonna start speaking with the fire of God.

You're going to start prophesying to your world. You're going to tell your world that the kingdoms of this earth have become the kingdoms of our God. The kingdoms of this world have now become the kingdoms of our God. That there's a transference from Heaven to Earth.

It comes out of your Spirit through your lips. You're speaking by the Spirit of God. You just prophesy. I'm prophesying to you. You can prophesy to your world. The Lord still tells me there's fire manifesting.

Just close your eyes. Raise your hands. Receive the fire. The fire of God is coming through the camera coming right to you now in the name of Jesus. The fire of God is over you because God says the new and living way that I have for you now is powerful that you cannot fail. The Lord says you cannot fail if you walk with Me. He would not lead you astray.

A lot of people learned to trust Him by walking with Him. You're learning to hear from the Spirit. This Lord says, "I'm gonna teach you how to hear My voice." That's what He's telling. He said, "If you'll let Me I will teach you how to hear My voice."

The Lord is really doing a lot of work. I'm still getting a lot of downloads coming to me. One of them is that your healing is delayed. You have to wake up every morning. You have to say, “Lord, I thank You for healing me. I thank You that I am whole.” When you go to bed at night you say, “Lord, I thank You that I am healed that I am whole.”

You don't let go of that. Think about this. I was wearing glasses in contacts since 1983. I did not believe that I needed contacts for all these years. I kept saying, “Lord, I believe I'm healed,” but I wore contacts for all these years. Just a short time ago the Lord told me I was healed. I went to the optician. I found that I don't need contacts anymore. The Lord healed me. No one touched me. No one prayed for me. I believe that this place called the secret place is where I received my healing.

I never accepted the fact that I was going blind. I always accepted my eyes were getting better. Now they are completely healed. You can receive your healing - now you need to just reach out. Touch the hem of the garment of Jesus.

The Lord says, “Come to My throne. Bow down before Me. See what happens in your life. There's a turnaround coming.”

That's what the Lord just said. He's saying come and bow down before Him. Worship Him. The Spirit of the Lord is saying that there's a turnaround coming. There's a turnaround coming in the name of Jesus.

The Lord says this also. He's been dealing with you because you're supposed to also study. You're supposed to get ready to write. The Lord says that there are many books in Heaven that need to be written in this realm. He said there are also songs in Heaven that must be transferred into this realm. He's been talking to you. You need to start to pick up your pen. Start writing. You need to pick up those musical instruments you need to start to go into the secret place. Let the Lord teach you to play. The Lord is telling you that you are called. You are chosen. You can yield tp this Spirit.

Thank you for tuning in with me on this session of the secret place until next time. God bless you

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Monday, September 28, 2020



Because my testimony is of a very dramatic nature, I felt it appropriate to include a brief declaration of dedication to God.

I (Vincent McCann) do declare before God and the Lord Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit that this story is true. I also declare that the many individuals included in this account can be called upon at any time as witnesses of the truthfulness of this account. I have nothing to hide. Everything has been told as it happened. God is my judge.

Since as long as I can remember I had always been interested in dark and sinister things. Even as a child I always drew 'monster' pictures and my parents used to suggest that I should draw nice pictures instead.

In the teenage years I felt desperately as though something was seriously lacking from my life. I often felt inadequate and longed to better myself somehow. Because of an interest in the unusual and bizarre, I would frequently purchase literature dealing with unusual phenomena and paranormal subjects (ghosts, etc.). I noticed various advertisements in these magazines that offered books on all kinds of subjects. One advertisement, in particular, caught my eye. It was on self-improvement. I ordered this book thinking, as the advertisement promised, that it would revolutionize my life. When the book came I was surprised by some of the techniques that it encouraged. The author strongly recommended self-hypnosis and as a result, I began practicing it secretly in my bedroom with the aid of a cassette recorder and a lit candle. It wasn't long before I craved more of something a bit deeper. After noticing other advertisements in other magazines I began to practice 'white' witchcraft and set up an altar in my bedroom. It seemed harmless enough at the time and there was a new sense of excitement and interest in my life with the added bonus of the possibility to change things for the better.

My interest in dark and morbid things also began to grow at this time. I dressed in black and got into the 'gothic' scene. At the peak of this period in my life, I was dressing in black most of the time, wearing white face paint and black eyeliner! Even though my hair is naturally a very dark brown I would always dye it black because I wanted it to be jet black. I began to acquire quite an interesting array of occult literature and set them up on a shelf in my bedroom, but I kept the more disturbing books hidden away because I knew that my parents would become offended. I also set up shelves to fill them with anything unusual. I began to make my own clay models, many of which were extremely grotesque such as twisted and tormented faces and creatures with horns. I felt compelled and driven to create such things. I even acquired a goats skull and hung it from the wall. On weekends, I would visit a night-club in Liverpool called 'Planet X'. This was a popular meeting place for people like myself. Interestingly, I noticed that a lot of people there also had an interest in sinister things as well as an interest in the occult.

Many of the friends that I had known for years began to notice a change in me. When they noticed how my room was developing, the books that I was reading and the things that I was talking about they became scared and I began to see less and less of them. I can remember on one occasion I was in my room with my brother and a group of friends and we were reading the Tarot Cards. When the death card was turned over a glass shelf suddenly shattered with a bang. We realized later that it had cracked due to the heat of a candle beneath it, but because of its timing, my friends became scared and took it as a bad sign. I suddenly found myself alone...a lot! I was also unemployed at this time and so I already had a lot of spare time on my hands but I at least used to see my friends in the evenings and at weekends. However, now I was alone in the evenings and at weekends as well. I thought to myself, "Right, I will engulf myself in gaining more knowledge about the occult and obtain power." For a time I did get very involved in this activity and ordered even more books through the post. The books that I was getting were becoming darker and darker as this quest for power continued. Every night, and at times in the day, I was practicing witchcraft in my bedroom, something my parents continued to be oblivious of. I think that they suspected that I was up to something because of my secrecy and the many unusual packages that came to the house. These packages consisted of occult paraphernalia ordered from occult suppliers (I think one was called 'Sorcerer's Apprentice').

Eventually, I was encouraged to be reintroduced to an old girlfriend. This happened when one night, out of the blue, there was a knock at the door. Two ladies were there who looked vaguely familiar. They explained that they were relatives of Jane, an old girlfriend of mine. They explained that they had come because Jane was in a local mental health ward and had been asking for me. I thought that the only decent thing to do was to go and visit her, which I did a few days after. When I got to the hospital Jane was very withdrawn and nervous. She was a small but pretty girl with very striking pixie-like features and long jet black hair. She, like me, was drawn to the gothic style of dress and wore a lot of black. From one visit a week I began to go more and more. She seemed to benefit from my visits and became less and less withdrawn. I felt as though I had a sort of mission to get her back to health. However, I didn't notice at the time but she was actually quite manipulative and demanding. One day the news arrived that she had been discharged from the hospital because of her uncontrollable violent behavior. She had smashed the ward up, something that she had apparently done several times before and this was her last chance.

After Jane's discharge from the hospital a new chapter in both our lives began. She moved back to her parents' house and I began to spend even more time with her. I was seeing less and less of my family at this time and was with Jane virtually every day. Eventually, this led to me sleeping at her house regularly as well. For a young man to be spending so much time with a young woman may not sound that unusual, that is of course if the couple were boyfriend and girlfriend. But we were not boyfriend and girlfriend. She simply wanted someone who would be a friend to her and take care of her. By this time I was beginning to get a bit tired of being around her so much and missed my parents. I didn't' want to end our friendship but simply see a bit less of one another. When I expressed this to her she was upset and felt rejected. Eventually, as time went on, I began to feel more and more trapped. Her behavior had changed as well. She became more confident and controlling to the point where she controlled everything that I did. In addition to this strong controlling personality, she also encouraged my interest in the occult and we performed spells together. It was as though, all of a sudden, to my surprise, she appeared to be an expert on the subject! She also made a special point of letting her parents know that I was interested in the subject.

I got on reasonably well with Jane's parents and they seemed to think that I was good for her. However, all this was suddenly about to change. Because they trusted me they felt that they could leave me in charge of the house and look after Jane while they went away on holiday for a week. The night that they left for their holiday Jane and I were in the kitchen. She had been acting very unusual all day but I just put it down to her mental problems. But nothing could have prepared me for what happened next. All of a sudden she stood up and began pacing up and down the kitchen doing what first appeared to be impersonations. Thinking it was just her way of having a joke I simply laughed it off. But she continued this behavior to the point where it was beyond a joke and I had stopped laughing. There was a point when she looked at me and I could clearly see that I was no longer talking to the same person. She spoke in a male voice and her whole personality had radically changed. The voice professed to be that of a spirit who had indwelt her since early childhood. It threatened me not to tell anyone about its existence and said that if I did so it would kill me, my mother, my father, and my brother. I was absolutely terrified and my gut reaction was to run out of the house and back to my parents' home but I did not have any shoes on at the time. Because of the threats and not having any shoes on I felt as though there was no alternative but to stay and talk to this spirit. I eventually became more relaxed and adjusted to this new but unusual situation. We talked right through the night until the light crept through the curtains and I heard the birds singing outside. This spirit declared that the reason for Jane's mental problems was because of its presence, but it further revealed that its time had come to leave her now. Before leaving it said that I was never to abandon Jane because I had been "chosen" to look after her. With this, Jane lay on the settee, closed her eyes and sprang up full of energy. She acted as though she had no recollection of the events of the previous night. In contrast, I was exhausted, physically and mentally.

The next day Jane seemed fine. Nothing out of the ordinary happened until late on in the afternoon. As we sat in the lounge of her parents' house, all of a sudden she looked at me, her face was different and a familiar voice came out of her. I said, "I thought you had gone." "I lied," replied the voice. As the week that progressed more and more spirits introduced themselves to me. Some were strange and mysterious, some were strong and intimidating, and some were even humorous at times. Almost every personality type under the sun seemed to emerge. However, up until the last day that we had the house to ourselves for the week none of these personalities had been violent. This changed only a few hours before Jane's parents were due back from their holiday. In contrast to Jane's reluctance to engage in any physical boyfriend-girlfriend relationship, one particular personality that manifested itself from within her seemed intent on encouraging me to engage in perverse sexual acts with her. Looking back, I have to say that I wasn't the most sexually pure of people, but the things that this spirit was urging me to do I just could not go through with. After refusing this spirit's persistent requests I watched in sheer terror as a new personality emerged through Jane in such a way that it seemingly rose up from deep within her, displacing the previous immoral spirit. I suppose that by this time, I had, to some degree, become somewhat accustomed to the various spirits that spoke through her. But nothing could have prepared me for the sudden personality that manifested itself at this point. She jumped up screaming at the top of her voice and white foam gushed out of her mouth. I had never known such a feeling of absolute terror in all my life. Having a vague sort of belief in God, and being familiar with such films as 'The Exorcist' I reached for a crucifix that lay on a nearby cupboard and held it up before her face (her parents were nominal Roman Catholics). To my dismay, this attempt to defend myself had no effect whatsoever. After attacking me she ran around the house destroying it. The next stage of her behavior took on a strange and eerie dimension. She began running into cupboards and giggling in such a way that it was chilling. At this point, I was at the point of feeling as though I was going to have a complete nervous breakdown. I could hardly believe that such things were happening to me. As quickly as it had come this aggressive spirit disappeared and a more relaxed personality took over and advised me to clean up the house before her parents came back. This spirit predicted that her parents would return within the next few minutes. We frantically tried to clean the house but time beat us. As predicted, and to my amazement, Jane's parents arrived back within the next few minutes. As would be expected they were furious. They had been good to me and I felt so sorry for them coming home from holiday to a house that was such a mess. On top of their anger, I could see that they were deeply hurt and disappointed in me. They had trusted me and left me in charge of their house and their daughter. I felt as though I had betrayed them. As if the present situation wasn't bad enough, Jane was implying to them that it was me who had led her astray. She also kept emphasizing to them my unhealthy interest in the occult. Amazingly, her parents eventually calmed down and let us stay with them, although my relationship with them was never the same. But there was nothing I could say about what was really going on. The words of one of the spirits who had spoken with me in the events of the previous week rang in my ears, "Don't even bother telling anyone what is really going on, after all. Who would believe such a story?"

Despite being allowed to continue to stay at the house we were certainly not welcome, which of course was perfectly understandable. We were both viewed with suspicion and Jane appeared to enjoy tormenting them with talk of "my evil occult powers". Her parents kept telling me to go back to my own house, something that, if only they knew, I wanted to do more than anything else in the world. Unwelcome in her parents' house, except, for being allowed to eat and sleep there, we spent most of the following days wandering around a local town. Spirit after spirit manifested itself to me as we wandered the streets. All kinds of mind games were played on me and I was constantly set various tests. She had me believe that there were two groups of people in the town. One group was against us and the other group was in favor of us. Incredibly, Jane would approach people in the town that I had never met before and they appeared to know what she was doing. On one occasion she approached a man and he said to her, "How is 'the work' going on Jane?" after which they both looked at me long and hard. She explained that he was "on our side." On another occasion, there was a man walking behind us and she said "That man is against us, he is our enemy," With these words, she said, "I will try and get rid of him." She then lifted her arm discreetly in front of her and revolved her finger in a circle. To my amazement, the man stopped dead in his tracks in the middle of the street, did an about-turn, and walked in the opposite direction!

Many supernatural things occurred during this period. On one occasion, while in conversation with a spirit in her bedroom, lots of flashing lights appeared by the curtains. On another occasion, we were standing outside her parents' house with Jane trying to negotiate with them to let us in (because we were only allowed in the house to sleep and eat, it was neither of these times on this particular occasion). The furthest we got, however, was being allowed to stand by the front gate to have a cup of tea and read the daily papers. As I usually did when I read a daily paper I went straight to the horoscopes page and was amazed to discover that everything that was happening to me was relevant to my horoscope reading for that day. I cannot remember the actual wording of what it said but it was along the lines of having to submit to someone powerful and not being able to resist their control and influence. In a similar way, Jane's horoscope was also relevant to what was happening and spoke of dominating and being in full control of every situation and having the power to subdue whoever she wanted. Although these words in the newspaper were startlingly accurate I realized for the first time that horoscopes were connected with dark spiritual forces of evil. One night while we were waiting to be allowed into the house to sleep we were standing by some trees at the bottom of her street. She looked up into a tree and in a terrified voice said that there was something in it that wanted to hurt us. We both began to run and as we did I heard a bloodcurdling noise like nothing I have ever heard before. No words could ever adequately describe what I heard but it was coming loud and clear from the tree that she had been looking up into. I could see clearly enough into the tree to observe that no person was hiding up there making the noise. There was just nobody there although the noise was so clear. As we ran I caught a glimpse of her looking gleefully on at the expression of terror that I knew must have been all over my face. Looking back, I can see that all of these things, the supernatural acts the tests that she set and the things that she said were all designed to break me down mentally.

Despite the longsuffering of Jane's parents, things just became too much for them. Eventually, we were forced to leave and found a bedsit at a seaside resort in a place called New Brighton. Both the bedsit and the area that we moved into was very undesirable. Drug addicts were everywhere. Some of the people in the bedsit did seem o.k. though but whenever they tried to befriend us in anyway Jane would be abrupt and keep them at arm's length. It was in this bedsit that the most violent attacks were inflicted upon me. I was beaten in the face and the various spirits that spoke out of her never seemed to stop tormenting me. Even throughout the night, these spirits continued their relentless assault against me and I spent many nights without any sleep. I was reduced to a shuffling zombie and went down to about seven and a half stone in weight. In contrast, while I deteriorated, Jane seemed to bloom and become stronger and stronger.

Occasionally, throughout our time at New Brighton, Jane did allow me to visit my parents in a couple of instances. Looking back, she probably only allowed this because we were running low of cash at this time and she knew that my mother would most likely give us some money. Each time before we went, however, she would be sure to brief me on what I was to tell them. She concocted a story for me to tell my parents to explain why I had bruises on my face. I was to tell them that I had been beaten up by a gang of skinheads. My mother appeared to buy the story but I sensed that my father was suspicious. The first time that she allowed me back to see my parents they were shocked at my condition. I unfolded my carefully rehearsed story to them listened to closely by Jane who sat nearby. For the first time in months, I broke down in tears on my mother's shoulder. Unknown to me at the time my dad had caught a glimpse of Jane's face looking on at the scene. He said that he noticed her, for a split second, as she watched my mother and I crying, smiling in a way that expressed a sinister satisfaction. When we left my father said that he searched my room and found an Aladdin's cave of occult books and other related items. I had many occult-related books and many of the more acceptable ones were not hidden but on display. However, my father in his search of my room had unearthed some of the more sinister ones. As a result of his discoveries, and his suspicions of Jane, he went to a local Anglican minister and unfolded what he knew. The minister told him that he and the Church would be praying for me and that if he could help further he was available. My father was also praying. Although he is not a Christian he felt that praying to God was the only thing he could do. Also at this time, in contrast to my own situation, my brother, Kevin, had become a born-again Christian. He had gone to a local drug dealer's house one night to buy some cannabis. While he was there the dealer's brother, who was a Christian, came into the room. He told Kev not to be involved with drugs and preached the Gospel message to him. Incredibly, my brother immediately accepted what was being said, turned from his sin and placed his faith in Christ. Like my father, Kevin did not understand what was going on in my life but knew that I was in trouble. As a result of his concerns, he and a group of other Christians from another local Pentecostal Church were also praying for me. God had come in on the scene.

It was during the next visit to my parents' house that these many prayers were answered. We were not originally going to my parents' house but instead had just come from Jane's parents' house and were on the way to a night club in Liverpool (Planet X). When we approached the station where my parents' house was nearby, somehow, I managed to muster up the energy and the courage to ask to see my parents again before we went to the night-club. To my amazement, she agreed (albeit somewhat reluctantly). After the usual threats of not telling them what was really going on, we arrived. Jane was upstairs in my bedroom and I was discretely called into the kitchen by my father. He asked me again what was going on, to which I replied with the usual prepared lines that Jane had forced me to repeat. He said that he didn't believe me and suddenly dumped a pile of occult books down on a chair and said "explain them!" I was speechless. He then further surprised me by saying "I know who is behind this. Its the Devil, isn't' it? He is the one that is wrecking your life and that girl is in league with him." I was so shocked by his words. Not only was this the first time that anyone had made such a connection but to hear it from my father, a man who never spoke about such things was a total surprise. The shock of his words caused me to break down and the most I could say was "Dad you don't know what you are getting yourself into." He explained that he had been in touch with the local minister and that he and his team were willing to help me. He told me to go upstairs and keep her occupied while he phoned the minister up and got him and his team to come to the house. He then quickly left the house to use a phone in a nearby shop and I walked up the stairs with my heart pounding like a drum convinced that Jane would know that something had happened. To my astonishment, she was oblivious to the conversation that I had just had and the events that were transpiring as a result. When I entered my bedroom she was dancing in front of a full-length mirror to a record by the rock group 'The Cult'. I was filled with fear and worry as I wondered what would result in the next few minutes. Eventually, I looked out of the window and saw my father coming through the gate with a group of men and one lady. I said, "Jane, my dad is coming up with some people!" Immediately, she was on the alert. But no sooner had I said these words they had entered the room led by my father who shouted, pointing at Jane, "That's her, that's the Devil woman!" One of the people said to me "You go into the other room and you (pointing to Jane) stay here." I then went into my brother's room with my father and mother and left Jane with the group of people from the Church. I was still very, very afraid at this point. I felt as though God was no match for Jane's powers. Any time that I had brought the subject of God up during my time with her she had either changed the subject or made God look as though He was weak and powerless. I sat down on my brother's bed with my mother and father either side of me and prayed the only prayer I knew, the Lord's prayer, or what I knew of it from schooldays. Even though the words of my prayer were all muddled up, I was looking up through the window into the sky and praying with every fiber of my soul 'God help me!' It was then that an incredible thing happened. It was early evening at this time and the sky outside was clouded and dark but as I prayed the dark clouds parted and the sunlight broke through. A perfect ray of sunlight came down and filled the room with light. My dad said, "Look! He has heard you!" For the first time since all the terrible events of the past, hope was born in me. I knew that God had heard me and was involved in my situation. The three of us wept for joy and God's presence filled the room. In contrast to what was happening in the room that I was in, I could hear the voices of the spirits who had tormented me for so long themselves being tormented. The screams and the shouting were ear piercing. Eventually, I entered the room where Jane was. Jane was surrounded by the people from the Church who were praying over her. Tears were streaming down her face and she looked at me saying, "Vince I can see faces in torment, burning".

It was eventually decided that Jane was to be taken back to her parents' home. However, she did not go easily. She kept going on about some sort of "salvation" and screamed at the people from the Church, "You don't understand what you are doing! You are wrecking everything!" While she was saying this, my father had gone to his toolbox to get his chisel. He met us all at the top of the stairs, his face was red and he shouted, looking at Jane "I am going to drive this chisel into your heart!" The people from the Church tried to stop him but in his rage, he threatened to hit them! It was only because I pleaded with him to stop that I was able to change his mind. I am convinced to this day that he would have murdered her if I hadn't have stopped him. I think the events of the past few weeks had overwhelmed him and out of his anger toward Jane, and his love for me as his son, he just snapped. Eventually, Jane was escorted from the house. She left me very reluctantly, kicking and screaming all over the street as she was dragged towards the minister's car. She pleaded with me to stay with her and said every manipulative thing that she could think of to make me stay with her. The commotion was so bad that perplexed neighbors emerged from their houses wondering what the noise was and some very puzzled police arrived to hear mutterings of demon possession and involvement in the occult. They were visibly shocked.

When Jane finally went I felt relieved but was still frightened. I had undergone weeks of mental conditioning that told me that harm would come to me and my family if I ever revealed what was truly happening. That night I slept on the sofa in the front living room with my father watching over me. The next day was Sunday and my brother Kevin was going to the Pentecostal Church that he had been attending, The Wirral Christian Centre. The next day came and I couldn't get to the Church quick enough. The Wirral Christian Centre is a thriving Church which at the time I first entered its doors had a congregation of about four hundred. As I walked into the Church the first song that I heard was one called 'Thank you Lord for the Victory' which is a song all about the victory of Jesus Christ over Satan and all the powers of darkness. Part of that song is as follows, "There's not a fetter that You cannot break Lord, there's not a demon that can stand in Your way Lord, there's not a principality, power nor authority, that is not under the feet of our God." It was as if someone knew that I was coming and written that song especially for me. Although I had always believed in God, I was confused about what it meant to be a Christian. Even though I had been involved in the occult I always felt that I was generally a good person. I had never murdered anyone, or beaten up old women, or committed armed robbery. I, therefore, felt that I was in with a good chance with God. Whenever I did something which was 'good' I felt as though God must have been looking down on me and awarding me points which would somehow outweigh the bad things that I did, and that I would eventually get to heaven when I died. However, after the service finished one of the leaders in the Church at the time took me aside and explained how each one of us was sinners by nature and that our sin separated us from God. Jesus Christ came as the only perfect man to reconcile fallen humanity back to their relationship with God through His sacrifice on the cross so that when people turn from their sin and put their faith in Him they begin a new life and can have a certainty of eternal life (1 John 5:13 These things have I written to you that believe on the name of the Son of God; that you may know that you have eternal life, and that you may believe on the name of the Son of God.). As I spoke with this dear friend the realization dawned upon me that I was indeed a sinner. I knew that I had done terrible things in the past and that my mind was full of sinful thoughts. I repeated a simple prayer of faith and repentance to the Lord Jesus Christ repenting of my sin and asking Him to be the Lord of my life. I was urged to pray this prayer with all my heart and I did so with every fiber of my being. Nobody told me to expect anything through such a prayer and I was not at all prepared for what happened next. I opened my eyes and said, "I feel as though I have found what I have been looking for all my life!" I realized that all of the things that I had been involved in such as the occult, the music I listened to, etc, had been a search in all the wrong places that nearly led me to utter ruin. I experienced such a sensation of love and peace that I could never adequately put it into words. All I can say is that I felt love. There was no doubt about it. It was love in its most pure form. I knew I was saved.

Things seemed to go well for a while and I slowly began to readjust to my new life. Jane still tried to keep in contact with me and sent letters none of which I replied to. Each letter was full of manipulative language and attempted to put me back under her control again. Eventually, my new spiritual life seemed to go horribly wrong. I suddenly began to see horrific visions, heard tormenting voices, and felt troubled inside. I felt as though I was finally going mad or that I had somehow done something against God and was being punished by Him. Nobody in the Church seemed to really understand me and I felt alone. Many supernatural things occurred during this period, too numerous to go into here.

My first release from this bondage occurred months later. I was standing at the front of the Church being prayed for, for a headache when suddenly I fell on the floor (much to the surprise of the man praying for me), and began shouting in another voice. People in the congregation who had witnessed the event later said that I had slithered across the floor like a snake. The Pastor, the Rev. Paul Epton came over to me and began rebuking the spirit. Inside myself, I could feel two personalities at work, my own and that of the spirit that had its grip on me and was presumably responsible for making my new life as a Christian so difficult. This spirit was mocking the Pastor and laughing at him at the top of its voice. Somehow, I could feel its arrogance and mockery. When the Pastor kept mentioning the name of Jesus I could feel its annoyance. The laughter stopped and it became extremely angry. I can remember feeling the emotion of utter fury at what this man was saying. I understand that many Christians believe that it is impossible for a Christian to have a demon but there was no doubt in my mind that I had given my life over to Christ and from that point on had become a true born-again believer. Whether the demons were in me or not is a matter of theological debate, all I know is that they were there and had been making my life unbearable. While at the front of the Church I eventually felt a release and I seemed to be myself again. However, similar things happened again over a period of a couple of years. But each time I went through some deliverance I felt more and more free.

As the years have gone on I have felt that God has continued to heal me and help me, although not as dramatically as what has just been described. Over the years I have felt God heal me gradually and I have felt Him changing me. I eventually got married to Donna whom I met at the Wirral Christian Centre church. We have two boys, Nathaniel (aged 6) and Edward (aged 5). After completing a degree at Regents Theological College in Nantwich, Cheshire I went back to the Wirral Christian Centre for a short time to serve as an assistant Pastor. At present, I am an Area Director for a Christian charity called Reachout Trust, an organization that deals with helping those who are tangled up in the deception of the occult and cults. I think that because I was caught up in such terrible deception I have a special empathy with those who are also deceived. I long to see people in such groups come into a true and living relationship with Jesus Christ.

Vincent McCann

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