MY
CONVERSATION WITH SATAN:
HOW
JESUS DEFEATED SATAN AT THE CROSS
Emmanuel
Omoobajesu was once a very powerful occultist. Satan gave him the
name “Bag Of Wickedness.” Emmanuel was saved by the Lord Jesus
Christ Himself who appeared to him and changed his name to Emmanuel
Omoobajesu which means in Yoruba language (Nigeria), “Son Of King
Jesus.”
Let
us pray: We thank Lord Jesus for Your kindness, Your love, Your
desire to help those that are being tormented, Your desire to
liberate those souls that are yet under the bondage of Satan.
And
I thank You for saving my soul, and I thank You for the grace given
me to be able to give out this message today to help Your people.
The
Bible says You send Your word unto Your people, You heal them from
their sicknesses and You deliver them from their destructions.
And
so, Lord, I want this word, this message, to be a deliverance and
healing ointment into the bodies, into the souls, into the spirits of
the hearers and I give You the glory for it Lord, I thank You for it,
in Jesus' Name, Amen and amen.
MY
CONVERSATION WITH SATAN
A
convention of the evil government was held in Nigeria, in the former
western region of Nigeria, sometime in 1952, the latter part of it.
I
was very young when I was initiated into witchcraft and I found it difficult to get out of it, even
if I wanted to.
When
the evil spirits hold a convention, they would go
into various divisions under their respective leadership. However, when all divisions meet together under one
tent, Lucifer, the son of the morning would chair such a meeting.
If
there were various discussions, there would also be various masters.
In the meeting of that day Satan, being the captain, was the leader
while some spirits like Beelzebub, Basmodee, Eriti, Bobana, Semlin,
Niagin stood around him as security officers dressed in army uniforms.
To
start the meeting Satan roared and greeted in occult language "Hello
all you members of the cults," and we answered accordingly.
Then
Satan asked us, "What do you think we can do to those who give
themselves to purity and prayer?"
Immediately
Beelzebul stood up to say something. He was however interrupted by a
man amidst us who asked, “Is it those people calling Jesus, Jesus?”
To
this question Satan roared angrily and said painfully to the man,
"Why did you arrow me? If you venture to call that Name again, I
will deal ruthlessly with you.”
He
therefore advised members to call Jesus "That Righteous Man"
My
beloved brethren, a most fearful thing happened immediately after
that man mentioned the Name, Jesus. There was a very bright light
amidst our darkness in which the meeting was taking place. The light
was so bright and intense that the meeting was unable to proceed any
further.
This
is one of the reasons why the witches and sorcerers hate any zealous
and prayerful Christian. However, the way this meeting ended so
abruptly brought so many searching questions to my mind as to the
invincibility of the power of Satan because I used to believe that
Satan had absolute power.
The
matter kept me restless so I determined to know that Name or the Man
that was called Jesus. I also determined to invoke Satan and know
from him, hearing from the horse’s very mouth, why he did not like
to hear the Name of Jesus.
I
made all the necessary preparations that must be done before Satan
could be invoked. I did all that was necessary to
invoke Satan and I invoked him.
To
begin with, I told Satan to answer all my questions frankly, then he
said to me, "Bag Of Wickedness." That was my name in those
days, that was my alias, alias Bag of Wickedness.
He
said, "Bag of wickedness, please leave that topic aside for I
know what you intend to ask."
When
I asked him back, "What do you know when I have not even asked
you any question?"
Then
he replied to me, "You can speak on."
I
said, "Captain, on that day during the convention a year ago,
why did you pass an instruction that no one should mention the Name
of Jesus?"
Then
he roared, “Whhhhhhhhhaaaaaa, why did you arrow me and said you
wanted to speak to me?"
Then
I answered him, "Captain, did you see me with any bow and
arrow?"
Then
he said to me, in a very cold but angry voice, “There is no arrow
in your hand, but there is an arrow in that Name you called. I have
told you not to call that Name again but to refer to Him as that
Righteous Man. Call Him that Righteous Man.”
Then
I responded, “Why is it Captain that I must not call the Name of
Jesus in your presence?”
“Hhheeeeyyyyyhhhaaaaa,”
was his response.
Then
when he shouted like he was bruised, he disappeared. I couldn't see
him anymore. Then I started to make some kind of forceful invocation
to compel him to reappear. Immediately he reappeared but this time in
annoyance and his face was so wild like he would have devoured me if
he had got the power to do so but I have so much around me that would
not allow him to come closer.
However,
we started to discuss again, then I asked him another question, "Why
did you run away because I called the Name of that Righteous Man?"
Then
he talked and I was shaken.
He
said, "You know you are inconveniencing me by mentioning that
Name, the Name of that Righteous Man. You know why?”
“In
the beginning God created us in His form and likeness. We were made
from the stone of fire while in creating the world He made human
beings from the earth and you know that the stone is of a better
quality than just the mud. Then God said that man should reign over
all He had created for which I am one. You know when you say the clay
should reign over the stone, you know some trouble is coming. This
really annoyed me.” So said Satan.
He
said, “We decided to summon a meeting of our own to counter God's
plan. The members of the supreme council of our government are
Lucifer, Leviathan, Satan. Others are Bellian, Beelzebub, Astaroth,
Margot, Basmodee, Oriens, Damon, Demamon, Eritin, Casiel, Zacquel,
Gabriel, Ammiel, Michael, and Raphel. Our topic of deliberation was
"What shall we do to make man the enemy of God?"
While
it is true that both Michael, Gabriel, and Raphael are in the kingdom
of God, so also Satan has his own Michael, Gabriel, and Raphael in
his Government. When I was in the kingdom of darkness practicing
magic and witchcraft and the rest of it, I knew up to six different
Gabriels of the devil and about four different Michaels of the devil.
After
Lucifer asked this question there was silence for about 5 minutes.
Soon
afterward, Beelzebub, the centurion of the hypocrites, stood up and
said, "One way which we can follow is to make man sin against
God. We know that God hates sin, therefore, if God sees sin in man He
will reject him and thus man will become an enemy of God."
This
was agreed upon unanimously but Eritin asked the question, "How
shall we do that? How can we succeed to make the man an enemy of
God?"
Lucifer
answered and said, “I will use the skin of leviathan, that is the
skin of the serpent because the snake is a friend of human being.
Therefore if I use the skin of the serpent they will not recognize
me.”
“By
doing this I will give them the fruit of spiritual poison, which is
the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of Good and Evil according to
the Bible reference, which God ordered them not to eat. I will make
them eat it. By that man also will become a rebel as we are. They
will become sinners then God will kindle His anger against them.”
And
the evil spirits were very happy when they heard the plan for human
destruction. When Lucifer successfully executed the plan they were all
very happy. Therefore God Almighty drove the man away from the garden
of Eden.
Now,
my fellow brethren, from the account of Satan, here l observed quite
a number of things.
Satan, all the forces of the devil, realized
that the easiest way to catch a person is through his friend, through
somebody that he loves. That's the best way to catch a person and
Satan will now come in subtly, cunningly, to put a kind of arrest
upon any individual through the one closest to him. That is why Satan
used the serpent (who was Eve’s pet) to entrap Eve, and later used
Eve to entrap Adam.
But
the Bible told us in Psalm 53:1, 14:1, The fool has said in his
heart, “There is no God.”
When
Satan was thinking of the plot to cause Adam’s downfall, he never
realized that God would have an alternative plan if the first one
fails.
So,
therefore, I am encouraging you Christians as you are reading now, be
very careful, be very very careful, extremely careful. Listen, you
can never be too careful with Satan. You can never be too careful
with Satan and for you to be careful enough you need to live the life
of holiness, a holy life. How do you live a holy life? There is
nothing that is called holiness without obedience to the word of God.
If you want to be holy you need to obey God.
Anyway,
to continue with my conversation with Satan, I threw another question
to Satan.
I
asked, “Captain, why is only sin used for human destruction?"
Then
Satan responded by saying, “The reason is simple. We have lived
with God Almighty and we know what He hates and what He likes. We
have tasted the joy of His kingdom and since He has driven us away we
wouldn't want anybody to inherit what we have lost, ok?”
“Listen,
Bag of wickedness, immediately we made man to sin against God, God
did what we never expected at all. He prophesied about the eventual
destruction of our government when He said, "I will put enmity
between you and the woman, and between your seed and her seed. He
will [fatally] bruise thy head, you will [lightly] bruise his heels
(now referring to Genesis 3:15).”
After
this prophecy, we were all sad for we know what it means. However,
Lucifer appealed for calm and said, "What type of son do you
think man will beget that would be able to conquer us?”
“Don't
be afraid, don't tremble. If any son of man should go against our
will, he or she would surely die and once he's dead everything is
done. So none of you should be afraid at all."
“But
we did not know that the seed of the woman would turn out to be
mysterious."
Then
I throw another question to Satan.
"How
many sons did God promise man and what was the sign you were
expecting to see before you know that your kingdom has been
destroyed?"
Then
Satan answered, "The seed of the woman that God promised is one
and He is the one who would face our government and destroy it
according to God's prediction."
Then
I throw another question to Satan, "What type of war did you
wage against each other? Did you fight with guns or with bullets or
with what?"
Then
Satan responded, "The war was not with guns, bombs or swords but
it was a war of blood. God wanted a righteous blood to cleanse the
sinners and since all the saints that God has been raising up has
been coming in, we've been trying whatever we can to have our own
share of those saints - to cause them to sin, to defile them or to
corrupt them so that they won't be used by God to redeem mankind."
You
know brethren I just want us to learn a little bit from here. When
God is calling you, God is calling you to come to Him just as you
are. Nothing more, nothing less, just as you are. And as you come to
God just as you are, God wants you to give the whole of what you are,
the whole of who you are to God.
But
Satan said, "No. I don't even ask you for everything; just give
me a fraction.”
And
when you give that fraction to Satan, whether your mouth for
backbiting, assassinating other people's character or you even give
Satan your eyes for lustfulness or you give Satan your ears to listen
to tales, you have itching ears, and you call yourself a believer.
You
know when you give that little part to Satan then Satan know one
thing for sure, that as soon as you give that little to him, God is
going to reject the rest of whatever you think you are because you
are not perfect. Don't forget the lyrics from the song Blessed
Assurance, "Perfect submission, perfect delight."
God wants you to be perfect as it is written in Matthew 5:48 Be you therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.
If you will submit to Him, He will make you perfect as it is written in Hebrews
13:20-21 Now the God of peace, that brought again from the dead our
Lord Jesus, that great shepherd of the sheep, through the blood of
the everlasting covenant, 21 Make
you perfect in every good work to do His will,
working in you that which is well-pleasing in His sight, through
Jesus Christ; to whom be glory forever and ever. Amen.
Satan
continued to say, "Therefore if God finds a man that believes in
Him, lives a holy life and die spotless, such a person would be free
from our power and after He saves all mankind with His blood, our
government would collapse."
Then
I throw another question to Satan, "What is the Name of that
particular Son that God said will bruise the head of your government
and in what way did the Son come to this world that made you know
that He is the promised One?"
Then
Satan replied, "It is the Name you have been calling since we
started the discussion and I told you to call Him that Righteous
Man."
I
wanted to say, “I did not know when I said that,” but I answered
unconsciously, "Is it JESUS?"
Then
Satan shouted again, “Haaaaaaaooohhhhhhhh!' Nuisance bag of
wickedness, do you want to drive me away? I told you not to mention
that Name again because it is more painful than an arrow to me, even
more painful than fire. Never you mention that Name again!”
Then
I responded, "Captain, from the way you talk, I am sorry, but I
just want to know. That Righteous Man you are talking about, it seems
like He's more powerful than you. You have not said anything about
Him at all, I mean, I just want to know something, what's going on?
How come you don't want to hear His Name or something? Why is His
Name so dangerous?"
Then
Satan responded, "I would have told you much more but you are
the one interrupting me by asking numerous questions."
Then
I said, "Ok. Forget about all the questions that I have asked
and tell me something about the superiority of that Righteous Man."
Then
Satan went into this kind of a long story to tell me which I will try
to familiarize you with as much as I can. That day is long past gone
now but I can still remember very vividly as if it happened
yesterday.
Then
Satan said to me, “Even before the promised Child was born, there
were many prophecies about His birth. Even up to the day He was born,
however, God Almighty hid the mystery from human beings. The mystery
is that God Almighty Himself came to this world to redeem human souls
that have died in trespasses. He came because of the sin of man and
that He might die the death of the cross so that the power of sin
might be destroyed forever. Many righteous people have come into this
world to do that kind of a thing but we have defiled the lives of
those individuals and so no human being can redeem mankind but God
Himself.”
“Therefore
the Name of that Righteous Man, which I told you not to mention, is
the very Name of the living God which He bears. For this reason
nobody among us can withstand that Name as the universe was made by
that Name.”
“The
most important aspect of it is that He died and rose from the dead on
the third day and He ascended into Heaven with the flesh, which nobody
has ever done.”
“During
His stay in this world we made all effort to bruise His heels, that
is to make Him sin, so that both Heaven and Earth would be all
corrupted all over but He resisted and He instead bruised our head."
“He
insisted on righteousness so instead of us breaking or bruising His
heels, He bruised our head even though we labeled two charges against
Him by which we wanted to trap Him.”
“The
first charge was that we quoted to Him that the Bible says in
Proverbs 11:21, Though hand join in hand, the wicked shall not be
unpunished: but the seed of the righteous shall be delivered."
“But
that Righteous Man replied to this saying, "Whosoever cometh
unto Me, I will in no wise cast out." That is John 6:37.”
“This
is the reason why when that Righteous Man was tempted on the cross
where two thieves were nailed together with Him, one at the right
hand and the other at the left, I, Satan, entered into the heart of
the thief on the left-hand side and then the heart of the thief on
the right-hand side, in order to tempt that Righteous Man.”
My
aim was to see if by operating through them that that Righteous Man would act contrary to the word
of God or to His own word.
“I
started the conversation through the thief on the left. Speaking
through his mouth I said, " If you are the Son of God save
yourself and save us too."
“He
said nothing, He did not respond.”
(Satan
is still taking, don't forget what we are saying. Satan is talking
now).
“Immediately
after I did that in the heart of the thief on the left, I entered
into the thief on the right-hand side and said, "Do you not fear
God. Since you are under the same sentence of condemnation and we
indeed justly for we are receiving the due reward of our deeds but
this Man has done no wrong."
“Then
I further added ( speaking on behalf of the thief on the right),
"Remember me when you come into Your Father's kingdom."
“After
saying this, I quickly ran away from the heart of that thief and
stood by the side to hear what the reply of that Righteous Man would
be.”
“To
my astonishment He bruised my head by saying to that thief, not to
me, He wasn't talking to me."
Now
listen to this brethren, Satan was saying that Jesus was not talking
to Satan. Jesus was talking to the man that was hung on the
right-hand side on the cross.
Jesus
said, "Today shall thou be with Me in Paradise."
That
was the most sorrowful day for the kingdom of darkness according to
what Satan told me that day.
He
said, "That was the most sorrowful day.”
Now
like he told me as I can remember, Satan said, "There had never
been such a day in the history of the evil forces after that."
“Then
after all these things happened that Righteous Man gave up the Ghost,
our government was torn asunder and divided.”
That's
what Satan said. He said, “Our government divided and was scattered
everywhere until the body of that Righteous Man was removed from the
cross and was buried. Ever since I have not been able to control the
damage to our kingdom.”
Satan
said ever since that time he has not been able to control the damage
and he continued to say that Righteous Man did not go to the grave
because of the living human beings but He went to the grave so that
the dead might have the privilege of hearing the Gospel and that
corresponds with 1st Peter chapter 3:18-20.
1
Peter 3:18-20 For Christ also has once suffered for sins, the just
for the unjust, that He might bring us to God, being put to death in
the flesh, but quickened by the Spirit: 19 By which also He went and
preached to the spirits in prison; 20 Which sometime were
disobedient, when once the long-suffering of God waited in the days
of Noah, while the ark was a preparing, wherein few, that is, eight
souls were saved by water.
Then
Satan continued to tell me that immediately Jesus entered the grave,
Satan and his followers and his angels remembered another of Jesus's
sayings before He died.
Jesus
said, "Destroy this temple and in three days I will raise it
up." (John 2:19)
Satan
and his colleagues now reasoned that since the word of God says in
Ecclesiastes 9:10, Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your
might; for there is no work, nor device, nor knowledge, nor wisdom,
in the grave, where you go.
This was the second charge, from Ecclesiastes 9:10, to keep that Righteous Man in the grave where "there is no work, nor device, nor knowledge, nor wisdom, in the grave.."
So
after the burial of that Righteous Man, the evil spirits stood around
His grave. They determined not to allow Him to resurrect from the
dead, according to what Satan told me, and even if He wanted to come
out of the grave, they have decided to beat Him mercilessly since He
was still in the flesh of human beings.
They
also decided to stop the wind from blowing from every corner of the
universe since they thought He would be carried away by the winds.
But
to their surprise, according to what Satan told me, "When it was
11:55 pm on that great Saturday/Sunday dawn, we saw the angels of God
coming down from Heaven. They were singing using many types of
musical instruments in their hands.”
Those
who went to the grave to look at Jesus, they met angels right there.
Luke
24:23 and when they did not find His body, they came saying that
they had also seen a vision of angels, who said that He was alive.
John
20:12 And she saw two angels in white sitting there, the one at the
head and the other at the feet, where the body of Jesus had lain.
Then
I interrupted Satan and I said, "What type of songs were the
Angels singing?"
Then
he said, "They sang three different kinds of songs but the first
one, the wording says, "Lift up your heads O ye gates, let the
King of Glory come in, He who has redeemed the world with His blood,
He is to take the kingdom."
The
song was sung in the Yoruba language because we were discussing in
the Yoruba language. The choruses were singing, "Hosanna,
Hosanna, ye heavens. Hallelujah ye the earth, the sun, and the moon
bowed down. Hallowed be our King"
"As
we saw them singing," Satan continued to say, "We were
annoyed and said in anger, “If you angels of God venture to come
here, we shall fight you to the finish.”
“Then
when we said this, they started another song. The song says, "Today
is a great day for us, honor be to the King of the cherubim. All
creatures, ye all come out, honor be to the King of the cherubim.
Great is He now in the war front, honor be to the King of the
cherubim. Demon spirits now tremble, honor be to the King of the
cherubim. Witches and wizards must not see us, honor be to the King of
the cherubim,”... and so on and so on and so on"
Then
Satan went further to say, "As the Angels of God were singing
that song, we were all at alert to overcome any power that was
contrary to our own and as the forces of darkness
stood at alert, we noticed that suddenly the Angels of God were not
using their instruments anymore and they had stopped singing."
"So
there was silence everywhere and when it was about 11:58 pm they
started to sing a third song without their instruments."
And
as they sang, Satan said it was like everyone there were as DEAD. And
the song they were singing was Psalm 24, the earth is the Lord's and
the fullness thereof.
And
Satan said as they were singing this song the demons around, all
those forces of darkness, Satan himself inclusive, were made
powerless and more or less dead.
And
one of the angels of God came to them and he laid a hand on the heads
of all those forces. And as many as they were, he made them bow
their heads down by force.
He
then said, "Ye bad things."
Before
Satan and his colleagues could raise up their heads, what they saw
was surprising. That Righteous Man had risen from the dead. There was
a great pandemonium and Satan and his people were panic-stricken.
Immediately
they heard the Angels of God singing again. Their last song was as
follows, "Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah. Thy strife is
over, the battle is done. Now the Savior's triumph has been won. Oh let the
song of praise be sung, hallelujah."
So
that Righteous Man rose from the dead, His resurrection was a grief
to the kingdom of darkness because it was by this that He gave His
people, the Christians, the liberty and the authority over the forces of
Satan.
Satan
told me this, “From that time God the Father put an authority,
which no demon can face, in that righteous Name. Whhhhhooooo!”
How
sweet is the Name of Jesus, Hallelujah! Glory!
Then
I ask another question, "What is the difference between you and
that Man and why do you call Him righteous? I have not yet
understood.”
Then
Satan said, "The difference is that He is my Creator and
whatever He says He will do, He will surely do it. His word is never
changing."
Then
I ask another question, "His followers and your followers, who
will enjoy better things best?"
And
he said, "Why are you asking such a question?"
I
told him, “I want to know, that is why I am asking you.”
Then
he said something to me that was so funny.
He
said, "Mind yourself for if one is crying it does not mean that
he could not see.”
“I
do not know what you want to do, you see, but that Righteous Man, you
know, whosoever is doing His will on earth, will enjoy small
betterment, small and at times none at all. Such a person will see
poverty and various tribulations and problems but at last, in the
government of that Righteous Man, the man will be with Him forever.”
“But,
whosoever is doing our will in this world, we will give him or her
everything he or she wants, don't even talk of needs. Be it money,
fame or anything. He or she would be rich and wealthy. He or she will
not suffer anything in this world and will even have more than
required. In the end, that person will join me in the Lake of Fire."
So
my friend, you have heard this dialogue between Satan and I and that
Jesus Christ is Lord, and even Satan knows this.
Then
have you taken Jesus as the Lord and King of your life? Do you accept Him
now, just as you are? Tomorrow may be too late, today is the day of
your salvation. You know, many believers or many people believe in
the Ouija board, contacting departed souls to find favor. I'm sure
you will soon pass to eternity and that favor you are looking for
would be of no use.
You
may laugh now, you may joke or you may even call me a liar if you
wish but I'm sure a preacher will definitely preach to you one day
and you will never have the nerve of calling him a liar.
Who
is that preacher?
Mr
Death.
Mr
Death is the greatest preacher that has ever lived on the face of the
earth. Anywhere he preaches his message people always shed tears.
You
see people dying every day, where do you think they go? Where do you
think they are going to? So, the decision is yours. And if you are a
Christian, this is the time to begin to mean business with God. Stop
game playing, stop playing games. Deny yourself, carry the cross and
follow the Lord and it will be well with your soul.
THE
END:
SALVATION
MESSAGE AND REPENTANCE:
If
you wish to escape the eternal fiery burning torment of Hell Fire in
order to make HEAVEN, you must accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and
personal Savior today because tomorrow is never promised. You must
restitute and confess all your sin unto God and also ensure you join
a Bible Believing Church for more spiritual growth.
However,
if you are a Christian and still indulges in various kinds of sins
such as...
Envy,
anger, unforgiveness, lying, hatred, malice, murmuring, gossiping,
stealing, taking or giving bribe, exams malpractice, fraud, smuggling
and robbery.
Perhaps
you are into masturbation, fornication, adultery, prostitution,
lusting after money and sexual immoralities, abortion, lesbianism,
homosexuality, kidnapping, ritual killings, and assassination. You
must confess and repent today.
Perhaps
you into drunkenness, fighting and quarreling, alcoholism, smokers,
divorcee, polygamous marriage, occultism, consultation of native
doctors for charms making, praying in the name of Mary or any Saints
or Angels, bowing down or honoring them. You must renounce all these
abominations and plead for God's mercy.
Perhaps
as a woman you still given into vile affection, changing the natural use of your body into that which is against nature. Indulging yourself into worldly fashions, dressing in
transparent clothes, wearing of mini and tightfitting skirts or wearing trousers, exposing your breasts, thighs to seduce men, painting lips,
fixing attachments, weave-on, jewelries, and earrings, makeup,
putting on extra eyelashes, piercing of noses, tattoos, nails fixing
and body bleaching.
You
must repent, dispose and burnt them off and ensure you maintain your
natural beauty because the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom
of God.
Remember;
your soul is precious and was purchased by the costly Blood of Jesus
Christ and you can't afford to lose "Yours" in Hell for the
next billions and trillions of years in Eternity with eternal sorrow,
tears, anguish, and hopelessness of ever coming out due to mere pleasure
and fashion of this world that PASSETH-AWAY which you can easily
forsake NOW and run to Heaven.
Oh
Heaven a place of everlasting joy, without tears, sorrow and neither
pains but rather filled with happiness and God's glory.
Please
my beloved, "Don't Miss Heaven" and I pray to see you in
that Glorious City very soon.
CONFESSION
AND REDEDICATING TO CHRIST:
Dear
Lord Jesus Christ; I admit that I am a sinner and backslider
I
have lost my first spiritual zeal and done many things that don’t
please You.
I
have lived my life for myself only. I am sorry and I repent.
I
ask You to forgive me and restore back my first spiritual zeal and
focus.
I
believe that You died on the cross for me, to save me. You did what I
could not do for myself.
I
come to You now and ask You to take control of my life. I give it to
You. From this day forward, help me to live every day for You and in
a way that pleases You.
I
love You, Lord Jesus, and I thank You that I will spend all eternity
with You in Heaven. In Jesus' Name, I pray. Amen.
(After
saying this prayer, please join a Bible Believing Church or meet your
church Pastor and confess all your hidden secret sins to him and ask
him to help you in daily intercession.)